Weight loss update

Is it bad that I'm scared to hit my goal weight? I'm 2 pounds away as of last week and I'm 1 pound away as of my weight this morning on my home scale (which has to change by this afternoon, but still).

Is it bad that I want to push my goal weight lower because I'm not quite happy with how my body looks?

When I first started with Jenny Craig, my counselor mis interpreted the person who signed me up's handwriting. 127 looked like 122. When I heard 122 was my goal I was like "WTF, that's like a waif on my frame." Especially when I'm starting at 145! Now at 129 I'm like "well I'm not quite where I want to be, I still have my little pooch, and some love handles, and if I start exercising at all I'm going to go up due to muscle mass".

I think it's the fear of having to do it on my own. The fear of failure, that I won't be able to do it on my own. Jenny Craig has made it so easy to lose weight. I didn't have to think about what to eat, just open up the freezer and find something with the right meal (breakfast/ lunch/ dinner) in a blue box. I'm starting small and doing my own lunches now, which is a slow start I guess.

I had my measurements done last week, and I was just looking back at what my measurements were when I wanted to start losing weight in November.

November:
Weight: 148.6
Bust: 37
Belly: 33
Hips: 41

May:
Weight: 129.8
Bust: 36
Belly: 29.5
Hips: 37

They also measure the largest part of the abdomen, but I didn't have an initial one to compare. Gone from a size 8P/ 10P to a size 4/6P. I can fit back in all my small dresses without looking like a stuffed sausage. I bought a dress in the Fall of '07 before I got pregnant with Ryleigh. The dress was a bridesmaid's dress for my cousin's wedding (really it was just a Banana Republic party dress). My cousin called off the wedding early in '08 before I found out I was pregnant and I hadn't bothered to try it on since, since I KNEW it wouldn't fit. Tried it on last week... and IT FIT! That was pretty cool. Tried on a dress I bought for my aunt and uncle's wedding in Oct '07, this gorgeous deep fall green color that's a straight dress with rouching down the center of the front and back. And it fit!! If anything the newfound wardrobe (well all the dresses I refused to throw away) is a nice motivator to keep the weight off for a while. On the other hand, I have no shorts/ jeans/ dress pants that fit me. Ones that used to not button, now fall off. That's a pretty cool feeling.